| goodbye |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|09:41 pm] |
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hello everyone. the news now is official i will be leaving for Seattle in Feb 2006. i hope i can see you all before i go but since i will be leaving i'll accually use my myspace and livejournal
hope to see you all
Jon |
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| lying at your feet |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|04:39 pm] |
it has been a entire year and more since i have posted so i want to post some lyrics
how can you look at me through those eyes
you seem so innocent but you know what your doing
the feathers have all now fallen out
and you have with me
but the ghost on the screen still stays
i dont know what happend between the last glance
and eternity fork in the road
we chose the path and can never look back
change is inevitable why cant we meet in the middle
Never's a word that never ment much to me
the left that we walked could be right if suspend disbelief
pointed fingers turned to hands of encouragement
change thoughs hurtful thoughts to the sweetest embrace
how can you touch me with thoughs hands
you seem so cold, do you know what your doing
the question was asked and fallowed by the answers and feelings of fear
goodbye........we can never look back
but nevers a word that never ment much to me
the left that i took would be pointless with out you in the lead
the months keep falling off dispite strong disbelief
hands that were once taken for granted
become the ghost on the screen |
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[Aug. 6th, 2004|01:50 am] |
just a question that was sparked up between me and tissy
is there such a thing as too much fun? |
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| sorry... |
[Aug. 5th, 2004|10:14 pm] |
i would like to take this moment to say sorry. first when i made this post i had just gotten in a fight with kat. the fight was totaly stupid and more then half my fault. i was feeling left out and so i posted. i had only gotten to sleep 3 hours the night before and i was really tired but i couldnt go to sleep. kat had no sleep to so everything we said to each other was out of bickering and tiredness. today me and kat talked and it was very good. now on to something you havent seen in this live journal for a while........a good post
i have taken up surfing if you didnt know and it is the best time of my life. my old friend DF is back in my life and it is excellent. let me tell you something about DF. we have been friends for 18 years. he has been there for me more then anyother person and just when i needed someone he shows up again and saves me. surfing is a big release and its something i really want to strive for. not only did he save me this way but also he has saved me finacially. he is opening up doors to worlds i didnt know existed. he is connecting me to very successful people and i accually might get somewhere with my life
im very happy i was just not happy at the moment of the post
thank you for your kind words and sympathys
motto we need to talk |
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| i guess this is no subject |
[Aug. 5th, 2004|02:48 am] |
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and so the nights go on and the nights still hurt. the wall is getting thiner but i dont know how much longer i can take it. emptyness is all i feel. nowhere to run, nowhere to hide i cant fight this feeling. it creeps in on me as i sleep. it seems like no progress is being made and to top it all off i feel like i have noone. noone but my self and i am my own worst enemy. i watch as i become nothing and i do nothing. everyone is growing but i seem to be dieing |
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| alone |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|01:19 am] |
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i am alone. my parents have made me feel like dirt. they said that if i dont move back in they will cut me off and then i would lose my car and then my job so i cant do that so i have to move back in. i feel so alone. im sorry everyone but it feels like i have noone to turn to. im not saying that there is no one i can talk to im saying it feels like i have noone to turn to. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2004|01:27 pm] |
I Am A: Chaotic Neutral Elf Thief
Chaotic Neutral characters are unstable, and frequently insane. They believe in disorder first and foremost, and will thus strive for that disorder in everything they do. This means that they will do whatever seems 'fun' or 'novel' at any given time.
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.
Thieves are the most roguish of the classes. They are sneaky and nimble-fingered, and have skills with traps and locks. While not all use these skills for burglary, that is a common occupation of this class.
Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy of NeppyMan!
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| empty |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|02:51 am] |
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i feel empty. i dont know how to get rid of this feeling. maybe its just going to stick around for a while. its not fair that the fates did this to her and i.my mother tonight confirmed what i have been feeling. in so many words she said i was worthless and i will never amount to anything. when i asked her to give me a break because what had happen recently she told me that i never want to talk about it and that i was avoiding the issue. no i just didnt want to feel like shit anymore, but because she is so good at this skill i felt like shit for the entire day. i want to run away. i feel like i dont want to see anyone right now. i just want to be happy. i wish for this but this feeling never comes. i act and look happy but it is hallo. "inside my heart is breaking, my makeup may be flaking but my smile still stays on" i dont know what to think or feel and its making me sick. im tired of myself |
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[Jun. 1st, 2004|02:13 am] |
As the sun sets and i make my way on the road, i notice an odd feeling in my heart. I dont know why its there but it is. i wonder if it is my feeling or something i have been feeling off of other people and i have just chalked it up to how i feel. it is a feeling i have had for a long time and i cant put my finger on it. i hope i figure it out
-smurf
quote of the day- "what if the sun doesnt come up? what if the sun wont come up until you fix what you have done" Jon S |
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[May. 26th, 2004|03:07 am] |
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| | Hellsing | ] |
Yeah i got Rons girl and I was a seeker go me hahaha
( Today )
Quote of the day " Where are you going to find a cow in the FUCKING CIRCUS" |
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[May. 24th, 2004|04:40 am] |
| jonstealth7 may explode without warning | M
EXPLOSIVE |
From Go-Quiz.com
hahaha this is great |
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| what i feel |
[May. 23rd, 2004|04:47 am] |
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i dont know why but i dont feel like my self. there is too many questions that i cant answer. some i dont want an answer but i still ask these questions. they need to go away. i dont like these questions. new people are fun. i have met a lot of new people and they are all exceptional. I dont know why i feel this way but i do and i dont like it. there is too much distance between me and everyone. i dont know how to change that and i dont even know what it means
there im done sorry |
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[May. 21st, 2004|05:10 am] |
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My new user pic hehe its cool
quote of the day "Prey for mercy from......PUSS.....in boots. |
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| what the hell |
[May. 17th, 2004|01:05 am] |
APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see |
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| they give up |
[May. 13th, 2004|10:58 am] |
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My father just told me that he is giving up on me because and i quote, "you go to bed to late to accomplish anything the next day" the reason why he thinks im asleep is because my cordless was not charged and when he called me, instead of knocking, i could not answer it. i was in the bathroom doing morning routine. My mother yesterday got mad at me because i did not know something that my father never told me. thats right, makes no sence whatsoever.i dont know what to do. Do i not get something? I didnt know that telepathy was used in making your parents happy. no it seems my mother is getting to my father with what ever propoganda that she uses to make me seem like the anti-christ just because i go to bed a little later then they do. i am and i quote a "asshole, who can not speak nicely to me[my mother] or anyone" i would like to point out that she has NEVER spoke nicely to me. I love how these people use the words "we give up" and "hopelessness" well i have a word for you dinosoars its call faith. My mother will never think anything of me and i know this because she told me (after she got very pissed at me because my father didnt tell me about something and i should have known already] yeah. the logic is really astounding over here at my house. thank you i just needed to vent
-smurf
quote of the day " Forget them jon, forget them all" |
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| a quote |
[May. 11th, 2004|04:11 am] |
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A quote that sprang to mind tonight. Take it as you will
"forget them, Jon, forget them all." |
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| pan..... |
[May. 8th, 2004|03:29 pm] |
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| | Kiss - God Gave Rock and Roll To You | ] |
im bored. there is noone to hang out with and i am extremly bored. I watched perter pan the other day and i remember how much i enjoy that movie. i guess thats all to post. i need somthing to do that is fun
smurf
quote of the day: " i always want to be a little boy and have fun" - Peter Pan |
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| my game |
[Apr. 25th, 2004|01:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
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| | Kiss - God Gave Rock and Roll To You | ] |
I ran my game a little tonight. I was kind of disappointed. I want it to be a little more fun. i have plans for the next game session that make me more hopefull of fun hehe. |
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